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Help me! How to tell People you Need Help, And keep Boundaries

Asking for the help from a friend, family, member, Or even co. worker, can be a daunting task. Being rejected In our time of need can feel so personal. Especially, If we have to somehow reveal our past to tell this person why we need their assistance. I have found I had to understand, what …

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Purifing Yourself, a Cleansing Experiance.

When an attack happens the feeling of being dirty is hard to shake. And when you feel this way it’s hard to accept, and be nice to your self. In other words loving your self is not an option if your preoccupied with the feeling of being dirty. And Loving ones self is the only …

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Real Love, is it an Illusion?

I have always been asked,  and for a long time wondered myself, how to find that intimate love? The love of a life time.  One who I could spend the rest of their life with me, and accept me.  This can be attained, however, you must first love yourself to achieve this high relationship goal. …

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A Twisted Mind. Through the Eyes of a Rapist.

It’s important to remember that these may help you, but they will not prevent all rapes. a rapist will target their victim, and in many cases no matter what the precautions are a rapist will find a way around it. It is never your fault! even if you did not follow theses suggestions. Rape is …

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Emotions that don’t make Sense! The Symptoms after an Attack.

There are Physical and mental symptoms one may go through, and not everyone experiences all the symptoms. Physical symptoms may include sharp pains in the stomach that move all around the abdomen. PTSD can also cause constipation, or even diarrhea. Stress can cause the immune system to weaken, and the heart to work harder. this …

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Self Affirmations Not self-defeating. Do it right!

It’s strange how self affirmations work.  at first you may not believe them, which in turns can become a negative.  It may remind your self that you don’t feel that way. It’s strange, however, natural to feel this way.  “Why does praise make me feel worse?” this is because in your heart of hearts you …

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Be a Survivor not a victim!

A victim is that person who has been in a position from where survival became impossible under the trap, whereas survivor is that person WHO MADE IT THROUGH THAT TOUGH TIME AND STILL STANDING HERE TALL WITH US. Most of us have come down in positions of life where we felt like something is dragging …

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@%#& it Happened! What to Do and Expect.

What is rape? And what to expect at the hospital, from your local law enforcement, and the court proceedings. I understand all you want to do is get clean! However, wait until you go through hospital procedures. Keep cloths, and any evidence the police may need. Definitions of rape: Although the legal definition of rape …

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When is it time to Leave Poisoned people?

Poisoned People can suck the life out of one self. If you Think Low of yourself than, most likely one has these people in their life. It’s strange how we can attract them, may feel as if they are all around. One reason is that people tend to believe you, if you criticize your self …

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Kicking Ass and Taking Names!

https://youtu.be/04F4xlWSFh0Taking self defense classes can instill a survivor with more power. Remember, the more one practices the defences moves, the more likely a defense move will work. Practice a move 1,000 times and then a thousand more. See what happens then. Judo Is my favorite form of martial arts. it’s all about joint manipulation, and …

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Agoraphobia break through break out!

When your own four walls become your only salvation.  the thought of going out the house creates anxiety and so much fear that the prospect of leading a normal life in the real world becomes a distant dream. I remember feeling my attacker was always close. Even if this was far from the truth. Or a …

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Mind, Body, Soul, Meditation

https://youtu.be/Tu-qZugHXfc Let your mind drift off to some soothing sounds! The world is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you deal with it.  keep strong and learn how to be vonorable again so you can always experience LOVE.  In my darkest times when I had love I was able to recover …

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You Are Courageous!

Every survivor is courageous, and every day they improve themselves they are showing strength. When a rape occurs it will rip away one’s confidence, stunt  growth and send us back to infancy. This horrific experience will take time to recover from. We have to heal on our own time line. It takes time to feel …

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Attacking your panic attacks, before your panic attacks you.

https://youtu.be/TnqZl_blT7E Your heart beats out of control or you feel like jumping out of your skin. The fear can be paralyzing. Panic attacks and anxiety can pop up at anytime throughout the day. Being triggered can be so easy. And it’s hard not to be triggered when you wound is still fresh. Do you have …

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Victory Party

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIOOwhmkoLo] Victory parties are a great way to lessen the blow of the day you were attacked. The day that you were attacked can stay in your mind forever, but all that matters is that you have survived another year and are getting healthier by the day! try not to put so much importance on …

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Learn to live!

Controlling your thoughts are the best skill to learn to make you happy! [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6pDdHxARkc]have you ever wondered why your life is so bad? This may be hard to swallow but you may have attracted it. I’m not saying that what people do to you is your fault or that you deserve negative treatment. I’m just …

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Give yourself time to Grieve

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ3wpjdYMqk] You must give yourself time to grieve . Why not? You did just die a little . When you, as a survivor hear this. Understand, do not be triggered. Have relief in knowing, I may never be myself but I can recreate my life. There is a part of one self that will never …

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Say It! Naming the abuser

This task may be hard for us to do, but this can be healing. By naming your abuser you can free yourself just a little. Let go of some fear just a little. Maybe the name has never been named out loud. This is not Harry Potter (the fictional children’s book) That person or people …

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Being on red alert

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4qlCC1GOwFw] When you’re on red alert your brain feels as if it’s going hay wire. Thoughts, nightmares and low energy may inundate,and overwhelm you at this time. this is like having your coolant drain from your race car and you’ve just got done driving in the Indianapolis 500. Your on red alert, and it’s time …

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Find a good Counselor Who…..

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8WNHYhhd0U] Find a good Counselor Who….. 1.Believes you 2.does not want a friendship out side of therapy. 3.Doesn’t push forgiveness or recollection. 4.keeps focus on you not the abuser. 5.never minimized your pain. 6.Has or willing to get info for your healing. 7.do they talk about there own problems? 8.respects your feelings 9.encourages contact with …

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The Peace of Mind Box

The Peace of Mind Box When your is mind is full of trouble, and you need some healthy distractions, try a piece of mind box. For this tool, you’ll need a box. Wood, metal, plastic, any kind of box or even an porcelain piggy bank, even a paper pinatas . the piggy bank or pinatas …

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Blessing beads

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ] My jewlery has always been  important to me, rings necklaces I would ware not only were fashionable but made me feel as though I was protected. my tiger eye necklace I wore for years before it broke. Now I have personally empowered My wedding ring. It reminds me that I’m loved and that most …

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Forgiveness…. Why?

Many of you couldn’t imagine forgiving an attacker. This takes time to do. You must first make peace with yourself; and come to terms with what has happened. Imagine yourself at a crossroad: In one direction is peace and happiness; the other is pain and hate. You cannot go both ways; so you must choose …

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Write, right! With all your Might.

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yd_SqyQVWY] Expressing your self through art/writing was a very important part of my healing. All of the feelings I had I would put to poetry. Now; be careful: Don’t get in a rut just writing your ‘sad’ poetry. Try to write inspirational poems; or love poems… even if you are far from those feelings. It …

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Carry a Mirror and Take Care of Yourself.

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtXOVKNazYU] One can’t help or take care of anyone properly, if they can’t help themselves first. Make a plan, start a routine.  Take on less responsibilities, until better Circumstances. Remember, some people, or situations must wait until you can properly preform.   take care of ones appearance and hygiene.  Lastly, don’t give of yourself if you …

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Why I Received a D in Abnormal Psychology

http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXBHCQYxwr0 Stigma against those with mental illness runs deep in modern day culture. Commit a heinous crime? Mentally ill. Take another life? Mentally ill. When in all honesty, this all encompassing overused term will also describe the kindest of us. People who are usually, statistically the victim of most violent crimes. Those with mental illness …

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The Downloads. How Regression Feels.

Denial.  The name of this game. Survivors, whom, experience the downloads or regressions, are in such shock at the moment of trauma. That our brains can’t compute the memory so it hides it.  Falsely giving one the feeling the trauma ever happened. basically,  your brain puts that memory in your spam box. I remember a …

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This Cosmos.

Somewhere in the immense depth of this cosmos, a star explodes in a supernova.  Throwing out its massive potential energy, into the vast expanse of cosmos that it held in itself for long inside its massive burning core. The energy that the star throws out at supernova is considered to be more than the total energy combined …

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Your Past was the Fuel

Your past was the fuel, that helped you decorate a wonderful present and future for yourself.  Life depends on your perception towards it. Live everyday as if it is the last day of your life and you need to enjoy this last day at its fullest and fulfill all your wishes. Thinking about complexities of life will …

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You’re a Survivor!

You are a survivor  you survived the darkness to stand at the peak of self respect today . Someone tried to destroy you but see They failed. Right here, right now its you today standing out here alone and look at your victory yourself.  you surviving and you have won because you never gave up in your life . …

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